Anger is my best friend

"Once in a life time I could feel this way" ... I wish... But no, that never happens. Ever. Considering how I am feeling right now. I know that it will happen over, and over, and over. It's not love, or admiration, or envy even. This would be much more interesting, this would be anger.

Honestly I feel like standing on my balcony and shouting out one hell of a string of profanities that would shock every one. I'll settle for just doing this. My day wasn't completely covered in a vial of red. It actually started off fairly good. Work wasn't filled with any overly stupid people, old people, or even the crazies who don't speak english. Then I went to the rentals house and had supper. Thats when things went wrong.

Trying to stay calm while talking to my mom lately has become harder and harder. Can you do this? Why haven't you done that yet? Are you going to... the list goes on and on... Even now I'm getting even worse thinking about it. Why do some people just know exactly what to say and what to do to make everything go wrong? Why do they feel the need to wreck a perfectly good day in a week that's already been hell? What... The... Fuck?

Drowning deep in my sea of loathing.

It's alive/ What a day

Allllrighty then. We finally have the computer up and running so that it doesn't shut off every half hour or so. It's definately a good thing. But to the matter at hand.

It's been one of those days. Not the kind that really really sucks because everything goes wrong, and not one of those days thats been really good. It's been one of those days that started off good and got a little better then right near the end of the day it just goes to shit. I would rather have a day that is really good, or really bad, but not a day that's both.

It's usually because of some random event or some random person that the day goes to shit. For me it was the random person. That one person who usually is nice to you and usually things go well with everything between the two. Then there is the odd time where something just goes wrong. You say something or ask them something and then all of a sudden all you can do is want to punch them in the face.

Now that thats out of the way things are fairly good. It's been a pretty tame week/weekend really. Went with Morgan to see Ghost Rider on friday night and well I liked it, but him being sort of a comic book guy; it didn't live up to his expectaions. Saturday was at the Pat and it just kinda flew past. Took Sara, Mike, Morgan, and myself to McDicks. Then it was bed time and well just lounged around today and did laundry.

oh cause I'm just a girl in the world.

So a lady walked into the store and wanted some Sex...

okay so it's been a rediculously long time. I know but what can ya do.
Any ways quick up date. Kate and I officially have 2 couchs. Deffinately an improvement from the half a couch we had before. Love it.

Other than that it's been pretty standard. well... Except for Last weekend... Okay. Friday was Bens 20th b-day Pub crawl and well that was really kickin. It started at the Pat, then off to the Branch, the Scuz, and finally the Duece. The Pat was rediculously dead. Honestly there was only like 5 people in there, including the ones that worked there. So we went back to the Scuz and Jackie being the amazing person she is got us in for free, and pass the line.

Saturday was a little more "so it's Paturday" and what a night it was. We met a couple of really tall volly ball players from the u of s. Then well. I got tanked. I don't really remember anything after midnight except for little snippets. Then I puked in/on Sara's car. I feel really bad about that to. Though I did manage to get the window down looks like a little got on the inside. Sorry Sara... Then Sunday was a little rough cause I was really really hung over. But that was all said and done with by the time I went to see the rental units that afternoon.

Other than that it's same ol' same ol'. Chillin out after work. Eating, sleeping, hanging out with Morgan. Oh... Ya... I guess thats sorta new. Morgan and I are seeing each other again. I think he was in one of my posts... I think it was "oh no I dropped my meet"? maybe. Something around that, but yeah. It's been about 2 and a half weeks now. So we shall see how things go.

You made me want you and one and one became two...

A series of unfortunate events...

It's been a while. I blame the rap music. :D

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As of late? Nothing particular. Moved out and thats about it. I've just been getting cozy at the cone... hah. But really. I'm either at work, chillin at the appartment or out. So in all thruths nothing has really changed except for the fact that I have to actually buy my own food now. Oh well I mostly did that anyways.

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I'll try and just inform you on the moments from the last time I was on here... Lets see...

Okay, basically the first wednesday I was in the appartment I had who I shall call Shorty over. One thing led to another and we ended up making out. Big shocker. I know. lol Now I really wouldn't have mentioned this but it ties into a bigger picture. Now naturally because he's short I informed him that well... it wasn't nessesarily a one night thing. More like a 2 or 3 night thing. Well that friday Sara and I went to the Scuz. This is where things get interesting.

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Unexpected Event One : At the scuz things were going good, we were dancing, there was a random creep we were avoiding. So there we were dancing with a random that was slowly becoming annoying, and I turned around and who was there... Constable Jeff. I hid on the dance floor from him. Sara told me later she said hi to him. Apparently it was wierd.
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Unexpected Event Two: Then I was standing talking to Cousin #1. The same one I made out with on New years. So there we were standing there talking and then he says "You should stay at my place to night"

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Unexpected Even Three: Walking around looking for Sara because I had lost her, who should I see but Shorty. Who by the way was acting like we were dating or close to it.

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Unexpected Event Four: While dancing with one of the twins not really looking for Sara any more and he tells me that the other twin, Kelen, and Nailpoish are in line.

Unexpected Event Five: Seeing Nailpolish. Even though I knew he would be there it's actually different when I actually SAW him.

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Unexpected Even Six: After dropping Sara off at home I went back to the apartment and was about to go to sleep when Brent calls. Then it was off to Cousin #1's house. I did stay there that night. lol in Sexy Erics bed. With Cousin #2. He stayed on his side, and me on mine.
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Then well I could go on and on about last night at the Pat but I can pretty much sum it up really simply. It was amazing. Dancing, being drunk and just not caring.

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"I'm coming, I'm coming!"

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"I'll have a big mac meal with a big mac... and a 2 cheese burger meal with fries"

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*Hiccup*

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Your such a pro with pretty little lines...

Can't worry about tomorrows pain tonight.

alllrighty then. I know it's been a while. but this is what happens when you move out and don't have a computer. It's a pretty sweet deal really. Okay so I was cleaning out my room of all the random crap that I have collected over the years and I found this sign that I've had since about grade 9 or 10. I'm not to sure which one, but the sign says

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TEENAGERS!

tired of being harrased

by your stupid parents?

ACT NOW!!

Move out, pay your own bills

while you still know

everything!

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I thought it was hilarious. Mainly because well... I just moved out. Back to the point of my blog which is mostly just to keep you all up to date on what the fuck. Okay so last night was definatly the night of the Scuz. Everybody who could have cause conflict I knew was there. Brent, and Melody. Curtis W, and Ashley. Mike and me. Andrew B and me. Graham, and Nicole. Now I don't expect any of you but Sara to know who all of these people are. But thats not the point. Near the begining of the night it was good because it was just dancing and wandering around and being silly. Later on is when things got sticky.

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Alright so was standing around hitting on Curtis W like I always do. lol one because I think it's funny to watch him debat with how much he likes my dad with how much he wants to do things with me. Fortunatly my dad wins out ever time. Except that night I suppose. He told me and Sara to come over to his place and drink with a few other people and we could just stay the night. Well I wanted to but naw. Brent and Ashley showed up and saved me from doing something that would have been really akward. Then Mike showed up. Naturally with The twins, and Kelen. I love those boys. So much fun. Except for Mike cause he sucks.

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But between trying to avoid people in that place because it was packed like a can of sardeens, dancing, and trying to actually find people your looking for. It was nuts. But finaly Sara and I got outta there. I dropped her off and was laying in bed when Brent called. lol I went over drinking at the Washinski boys house. It was a pretty good time. Sat around talked with Ashley and got drunk. Then when I decided that I couldn't drive I crawled into Sexy Erics bed, with Chris. Now I know what your thinking. and No. he stuck to his side and me to mine. We even had two seperate blankets! :D. But definatly stayed up talking for a while. I didn't get to bed till around probably 5. then got woken up around 11am by my phone.... Then I went home, and here I am.

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I left you in the morning so drunk on melow drama.

The thursday that was the Branch.

Okay so I lied and have a little time so I figured that I would make a random post about last night. What is so special about last night you ask? Well I went out with Curt, Tam, Poff, and April. Naturally we went to the Branch. It was a grand time early on with dancing with Gabe and such, I even saw Andrew Barron and danced with him even though he was sick but it was pretty splendiforous. Then April got kinda drunk and well was even more entertaining.

When April around and I may have mentioned I was looking for "a little hottie" well when she's sober it's mostly "Chellie your not allowed to! Boys are evil! Except mine." I laugh most of the time and go "okay" but when she gets drunk it turns into "Ohhh he's cute go talk to him, or just bump into him or something... GO Chellie! GO!" and I continue laughing at her. Then we go dancing.

So mostly that's what the night was. When the night was winding down around 1:30am, then I mostly was sitting with Tam people watching. So what do I see but this girl being so drunk that she honestly can't stand up on her own and was actually kinda sad. I had seen her a few times walking around and noticed she'd dropped her headband so I picked it up for her. Handed it to her, and she took an interest in standing with me. Lol till she noticed Curt then decided that well... She needed to drag him out on the floor. That was the funniest thing I have ever seen. She was trying to hit on him while being that drunk, and falling over. He was just trying to keep her standing.

On the way home naturally the first thing that had popped into everyone's head was McDonalds. Which then turned into Subway. How? I have no idea. But thats not the point. So there are Curt and Poff in Subway and ahead of them was these guys who looked pretty cute, so I called Curt because it almost looked like the one was fairly good looking, but wasn't sure if he had clear skin or not. Tams words. Honestly. So I call curt who's standing in subway and ask well he said it looked good on that front, then asked if he should give him my number. I laughed naturally but decided what was the worst that could happen. You should have seen that guys face when Curt walked up and started talking to him about it. Honestly I swear that made his night right there. Then that guy actually called about 5 min after he had left subway "to see if my brother had been bullshitting". His name is Windon, and he's supposed to call next weekend.

Little darling, welcome to the show!

It may be a while.

Okay so seeing as how I'm going to be super buzy n such for the next like week or so I figured that now was a good time to make a new post. First, Constable Jeff is out of the picture. Second, I'm moving in with Kate on the 1st. Everyone is welcome to help us move (Bring your truck. Love that song) Third, I'm going to Calgary this weekend I hope if not then I won't be nearly as buzy as I thought I would be because well I'll have the entire weekend to get that done n such. Forth, If there is currently or going to be any serious drama. I take no sides I'm Switzerland, Although you are welcome to come over to the new place and chill with me as long as you give me at least 10min notice.

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Alright now that thats out of the way I can actually do something random as per usual. Well I do have my thinking/pimpin hat on. The Fadora rocks you are all jealous. :D Kate and I went shopping for the few things we needed for the new place today and well it wasn't as much as I thought it would be. Mostly it was just the little things we didn't have and even then it didn't add up to that much. Considering we are getting a shit load of stuff from her grandma and will only need to get something like a slip cover it's pretty sweet.

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I've been trying to keep buzy really with the move because I can't concentrate at work really. That happens when you randomly find out your grandpa has had a stroke the day before. Technically that was about 2 days ago. But still it's a shocker if nothing else. I suppose things will be just hunky dorry for the most part but well friggen hell. blah. Thats all i'm going to say.

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Other than that... Things are fantastic. For the most part. My family isn't exactly thrilled I'm moving out. Well D-wayne was then I told him I was coming back and he said "Damn" . Lol But it's just like I keep telling them. It's something I need to do. Yes they have all done it and know that it's maybe not the best idea but fuck that noise somethings I actually need to know and do for myself. There. I'm done.

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I like where we are, when we drive in your car. I like where we are. Here.

A night with a Constable...

Alllrighty since Kate basically demanded a new post here it is. Really I don't have much to say. Well that might just be a little bit of a lie. Okay here it is. Today being Saturday, the day after friday naturally I should have something to say about the weekend that just started right? right. and naturally I should tell you all right? ... right.

So as some of you know (most of you don't) I went out last night with "Constable Jeff" also known as Arnie, or Arnald. (I'm not actually sure how he spells his name) It was pretty low key because apparently he decided to take me out to supper and well I had a big lunch. Well... A big mac, and one kickin peice of cake. So I didn't really eat that much but I definatly had more fun just talking to him anyways. That guy is hilarous, and he drives a truck. Can it get any better? lol.

After supper I thought it would be cool to go see Kallie at McQuires... They were at O'shea's. I'm soo cool i get pubs mixed up! lol oh well Constable Jeff and I stayed and had a drink anyways because it seemed like a good idea at the time. Then after a few harassing phone calls from Greg Poz it was off to the Branch. Honestly. Don't ever go to the Branch on a friday night. It just plain sucks... Except for the two guys who stand by the pool tables and play that punching game where it measures how hard you can punch. One because they look rediculous, and two... They look rediculous.

Finally from the Branch it was off to the Hoze and Hydrant. Yes I did say Hello to Mr.Fantastic. the night did start to wind down after all the dancing and a little more drinking. Which I didn't do much of after the Branch because those shots were not sitting well. But then yes ladies and gentlemen it was time to go home around 2;30 am.

Just a few side notes. One Sara it was actually Greg who called you at 2am from my phone. lol. We were trying to get him to tap something. Your name came up. *Wink* Two Yes Kate and I are moving out together with Dana on his days off. I am also Tres excited! Three You should all try and hang out with cops. but I warn you "we are never off the clock" as a bar fight starts and they break it up faster than the bouncers.

Maybe go to my place and just kick it like Tae Bo!

Mellow Weekend.

So here I am sitting listening to Jacky J. (aka Jack Johnson) because he's mellow and that's just the kinda mood I'm in. Just kinda contemplating my weekend I suppose, going over the details, and the stupid things I/others did. All n all I would call it an average weekend.

Friday, I went over to Sara's expecting karaoke I was actually really disappointed when it didn't actually happen. I suppose those people who were involved in not going had their reasons but more often then not the group makes some sacrifice on one weekend or another to fit those needs of just one individual. anyways, Sara and I ended up going to the Scuz after we got Kate's text that it was boring at Gerrit's , and that she was leaving. When we did get to the Scuz, it was ok, nothing to exciting. Just kinda dancing around in clothes that weren't really meant for the bar. I would actually have to say the best part of the night was seeing "Constable Jeff" and his friend / andother officer of the law, Clay. Also seeing Aaron, Arlen, Phil, and Kelen. Best part of my night anyways.

Saturday was a little less productive, basically didn't do much of anything just chilled out and went on a pub crawl at 7. Now the people that were on the pub crawl weren't some of my favorites. I liked the people that I knew from work cept like 2, and a few others but the rest of the people... I thought I was going to get shanked from them. Honestly. The best part of that was going to Jaxx, minus all the old guys but they didn't really hit on you much they more just watched which I was very ok with.

Sunday I went and watched a mens basketball game. Mainly because a girl I work with is trying to set me up with this guy her b/f (who I also work with) which I wouldn't mind but get this... He's 28. ouch. Other than that a very nice guy, fairly good looking and all but still, 28. Not happening. So I ditched out right after the game was done saying I had to help my mom with supper because the grandparents were coming over (true by the way). That was good, after the pie and all. Grandma makes goooood pie. Then after a phone call from Sara, and Gabe they came over and we watched Out Cold. Good movie. lol Just one good sunday night all around.

That is why my weekend was just average, nothing special and definatly nothing to bad. More laid back then anything considering the cold n all. Really though I'm okay with that. With going to Calgary next weekend, and going to Vegas and area in march I can't exactly afford to go around spending a bunch of money going out.... Cept once and a while. lol

Can you feel a little love... Dream on. Dream on.

Oh so similar

Alllrighty then. So this sort of started Saturday when I once again went along with things before thinking. So Saturday while at the Pat and Sara was hitting on The bouncer i was for the most part of the night wandering around with some one I'll call the guy with cool hair well it seemed like a good idea at the time. Story of my life. I know.

Anyways! so naturally phone numbers were exchanged and well after talking to him shortly today on the phone realized something I seriously do not like. The guy with cool hair sounds/talks almost identically like my ex -boy who Alexander kindly named Nailpolish (Ps. I love this whole nick name thing.) So as you can image this isn't really helping the entire situation.

The entire reason Nailpolish and I broke up was because 1. he said i was average, and uncaring when it came to intellectual, and philosophical conversations. Not a good thing. 2. We had nothing in common. Which really bites because I really liked Nailpolish. but shit happens, move on. Still I can't help but wonder if the same thing would happen with The guy with cool hair. Mostly I'm going to stick with my last post and see if I can't work out just being friends with him because he is really cool, and maybe later things can develop.

Other than that little tid bit... I'm going to Las Vegas. Thats right Vegas. and I'm oh so very pumped! Mind you I know that I won't be able to drink or anything but thats okay. I wouldn't really do that around my parents, and extended family we are going with anyways. So who will all be going is my parents, myself, my cousin, aunt and uncle. Mind you my little cousin is only like 14. But she's pretty cool and she thinks I'm the shit naturally (even tho the little fart is smarter than I am... Books wise naturally. I'm "wiser") But ya i'll be going actually till the 29th or 30th of march, so naturally I'll be in Nevada for my birthday! then well... I guess i'll have to come back and party with you people on the weekend if need be. But ya. I'm pumped!! oh. And I go to calgary in like 2 weeks to see my new little cousin Amilia Bebbe.

Touchdown turnaround! I never see you around, anywhere anymore....

P.S Pubcrawl this saturday, the pat, 7pm, $10.
you're welcome to come!

Don't give up on me

Okay, so last night was a very good night all n all. Filled with dancing and such as per usual. Jackie is definatly awesome to go to the bar with! WOOP! anyways. I discovered something this afternoon thinking about last night. Well that's not entirely true. It was half last night at the bar, and half this after noon. I don't want to date any one right now.

I suppose you could say that I am tired of just getting swept up in the whole thing. I'm just kind of tired of it. Thinking things could work for longer than a week when really they won't. Mind you I'll still go out and have a good time n all, but I don't know if I'll go out and hit on every cute guy I see... Maybe just one or two. I think I would just rather chill out with my friends and not have worry about anything else.

With that will probably come with going out less durring the week and mostly just on the weekends. Unless it's for coffee or soemthing along those lines. Being simple is the name of the game now. Call it being tired, maturing, or whatever but thats what I want. That and the fact that I need to save money for school next fall, as well as the random trip for Jessica's birthday. Which by the way I'm totaly pumped for. Even though it's in june.

Good thing there's no mercy rule in love cause I would long be beat

Random...ish.

Welp, I am officially single. That happened a few nights ago after the "average, and uncaring" comment it sort of died. So naturally I'm actually better than I was before. I suppose I knew it was going to die eventually because well we don't really have anything in common. Actaully scratch that. We don't have anything in common. But it was a good run of a month and a bit with out any problems at all so really for me... Thumbs up!

Any ways I don't really have much to say but figured a new post was in order. Well ya. I don't have anything to say besides that work is now swamped and I don't have any downtime available so i can't go home which is good for mee! Overtime is a wonderful thing. On a work realated note some guy told me "You are the shit! opps! You're awesome" I just laughed and said thats what they pay me the not so big bucks for. He called me "Mate" aswell. Love the Ausies.

Any who the next few days should be jam packed. Tonight being thursday it's i suppose the Branch. Friday is Jordans birthday at the Pat, although I heard we were taking him to the Scuz anyways. and Saturday is well... Paturday. duh.

You can be my bad boy but understand that I don't need you again!

New Years Blues 2

No two shots are the same. That would be how much we started out with.

Well last night started out a little rough but after a while I just didn't care. Why? I was drunk. Now I'm going to apologize. Mainly because I was a mess last night and was off in my own little world. A very drunken world by the end of the night but my own little world just the same. I hope you all had a good new years!

I feel a sin comin on!

New Years Blues

So i've decided that just a few words can put a damper on ones New years spirit. Mind you i'm sure that my new years will still be fantastic but not in the same way that it could have been before I got said phone call. Now for those of you who don't know what i'm talking about all you need to do is ask. I'm not very shy about these things in the way that i feel some input is needed to help me decide what I should do. Keeping in mind that the decision is still ultimately mine.

That having been said I have been a little off all day. Most of the time I am indeed fine but there are those moments like now when I look around my kitchen full of happy people who have been together for a long time and wonder when that will happen to me. Although for myself a month and a half with out any problems or anything is suprising even for myself.

In the end I will most likely do one of two things... Talk to him about it like I really should, and see how I feel after said converstation. Or possibly two, which would be to just end it saying that even though I still like him we are just to different for anything to work past this point. Either way I'm going to suck it up, put it to the back of my mind for now and just try my best to enjoy the night and not focus on how when that midnight strikes I'll have no one to kiss. That is unless Kate, or Sara would do the honor as per usual.

What a wonderful caricature of intamacy

Updated.

Welp I figured it was a good time for a new post. Not that it's going to be very intersting at all but thats okay! So considering Christmas just finished and New years is coming on very shortly I am definatly quite excited. Mainly because I know that it is at least going to be interesting. WHY? Because it always is.

New years for me at least has been an awesome time, and when it's not it's at least entertaining. I'm either playing video games all night, having an awesome time with my friends or... well... being hip checked into a door knob and leaving a large dent in the wall... Which is still actually there if you would care to look. Right behind the basement door. Props to Hermansen for that one. lol

To start off the New years festivities I've been going out. It started Wednesday with Michelle G and Sara. We went to JT's lounge and had some wings n such then it was off to the OD for some drunken dancing/stripping (I was wearing another shirt underneath!). Thursday was the Branch. Mind you I did get rather tired fairly quickly but thats okay it was an awesome time nun the less. Happy Birthday to Buttons for turning 21, and finally getting a cell phone. Finally believe that tonight is supposed to be the Scuz. We shall see if it measures up to last week.

Just a little filler for the Scuz, last week we saw Summer and a Kat, then after work Jackie came and then Elise showed up. It was just an awesome kinda night. Where you look down and see that it's 1:30am and well you've been there since like 10pm. Just awesome.

Well you're so damn hott!

Be strong

This was intended to be something else that just changed into a few clips of songs that kinda stood out to me. enjoy.

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"Whatever happened to our inner glow? Whatever happened to the song, the soul, the me i used to know? Whatever happened to my radio? Whatever happened to my song? "

Inner Glow -Blue October

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"I freaked out, thinking people didn't love me. I watched closely as the you I knew forgot me. In letting go, I am so proud of what I've done."

"In the day by day collision called the art of growing up. There's an innocence we look for in the stars, to be taken back to younger days. When there was no giving up on the people we held closest to our hearts"

Razorblade -Blue October

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"Just a list of things that I should know everyone should know:

1. You gotta take it kinda slowly

2. you gotta hurry up and make your move

3. You gotta tell her how you feel

4. You gotta be the perfect gentelman.

When you shake the wall, you gotta make it bend. You gotta show her that she's the balance beam and I keep falling all around her fairy tale."

Fairy Tale -Blue October

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"I deal with the fact that I've forgiven the worst. I feel that my social behavior may seem somewhat unrehearsed. Another page. A sullen rage, and I'll be back to my normal self. I'm finally happy. Happy. Independantly happy."

Independantly Happy -Blue October

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"You oughta hear the things I’ve been thinking. You oughta swim in a heart that is sinking. You try to break me with all the things you say: 'Miss Almost, Miss Maybe, Miss Halfway' "

Miss halfway - Anya Marina

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"I wanna know what it's like to be awkward and innocent, not belligerent. I wanna know how it feels to be useful and pertinent and have common sense, yeah. Let me in,Let me in to the club. 'Cause I wanna belong, and I need to get strong, and if memory serves. I'm addicted to words and they're useless."

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"Let's get fucked up and die. For the last time with feeling, we'll try not to smile. As we cover our heads and drink heavily into the night. That’s no shock and surprise. I believe that I can overcome this and beat everything in the end. But I choose to abuse for the time being. Maybe I'll win, but for now I've decided to die."

Lets get fucked up and die -Motion City Sountrack

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"Satisfy myself. Avoid beginners, Who long to shut my mouth till I take one of them home. 'Cause I know how it feels filling in the blanks. Looking on the bright side, when there is no bright side. Cumming in your pants for the off chance with a... poster of a girl"

Poster of a girl -Metric

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"I gotta let you know I'll always stand strong because the lessons that I learned at home. My momma told me, 'baby hold your own' and I appreciate the love you gave becuase it taught me how to walk this way, talk this way, never be afraid."

Feelin' fine (remix) -Classified feat Jordan Croucher & Jay Bizzy

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"So since I’m not your everything, how about I'll be nothing. Nothing at all to you. Baby I won't shead a tear for you. I won't lose a wink of sleep, 'cause the truth of the matter is... Replacing you is so easy"

Irreplaceable -Beyonce

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"Hey, hang your red gloves up. 'Cause there's nothing left to prove now. Hey, hang your red gloves up. Baby, no one cares but you. What planet are you from? Accuse me of things that I've never done. Listen to you carrying on..."

L.A. Ex -Rachel Stevens

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Life's a trip...

Scuz-ing it up baby!

Okay. so I just had one of those nights where it was just plain great. Nothing bad happens on those nights. You know what I'm talking about. The nights where you go out with you and your friend, find more people you know as the night goes on and the next thing you know it's like 2am and your still ready for more.

I love these nights. They seem to happen on random friday's at the scuz or when the scuz is involved. You know how you can go to some bars such as the OverDrive, or the double duece and they never seem to be any fun for you? Except on those rare occations when they randomly are. Then you hit somewhere like the Long Branch, The Hoze and Hydrant, or The Scuz and everything is awesome. Mind you that could be because of the people. Mostly I just think it's the places in general.

The Pat is to...grubby I suppose is the word I'm looking for. The OverDrive (tho I do enjoy to go there from time to time) is to wanna be gangster/I'm creepy and going to hit on anything that moves. The Duece plain and simple TO SMALL! Now mind you haven't been to all of the Bar/Nightclubs/Lounges but I've been to my fair share and well you always have your favorites.

Some how when your at one of those places you love to go to even if it's only like once every two months or something along those lines, it rocks. You dance the night away with the poeple you came with, avoid the ones that you dance with/make-out with when you were single and just have a good time seeing all the people that you usually don't ever see... I had one of those nights tonight. I loved it.

It was a one night Extravagansa!

Random Freak out?

So I'm sitting at work, drawing on my arm because I was in "training" all day at work. (Training = It's slow, and we need people off of the phones. So you sit there...) When all of a sudden this feeling of complete horror washed over me. My stomac tightened, I got all flushed, couldn't concentrate on anything. Why it happend? I have no idea. It was random, and unexpected. Maybe something really has happened that I haven't found out about, or something will happen.

After the feeling had passed I thought of something. Today, December 15 is Mike's and I one month. Now this is actually a big deal for me mainly because no one ever lasts this long. I think I freaked out a little because of it. At least that's what I'm hoping it is. I'm definatly still trying to figure out exactly what caused it because I would like to know. Needless to say I'm still a little freaked out about it.

My cure for it? Kicking off from work about 2 hours from work early and listen to Christmas Carols. They always make me feel better. That and Junk food, but that might be skipped so I can work on stripping the wall paper off of my walls. Yes I'm taking down the little pink hearted wallpaper that's been in my room for the last what 5 or 6 years. I know it's a little belated but better late than never.

What's a Partridge, and what's a pear tree? Well I don't know so please don't ask me, but I can bet those are terrible gifts to get...

It's Christmas time again

Seeing as how everyone else has started in whit their christmas posts I figured I would title one and then just make it like all of the others. KIDDING! Oh and Alexander. Christmas time starts on December 1st. non of this December 20th stuff. Mostly thats just cause it's the Chtristmas month.

Really what I wanted to blog about was my work. Now most of you know what I do. I take reservation from around the world, mostly from the United States though. ANYWAYS what my topic really is, is how do you know what to say to some one who you are on the phone with and don't know what they celebrate. Mind you most people do say "Merry Christmas" but what about those who don't. Even worse (in my eyes) those who don't celebrate anything at all.

Now all of this just takes me back to high school when I think it was Kayla who say "Merry Something! and a Happy Whatever!" How appropriate. Mind you I think they would get mad at me for saying it at work, but in my own defence I could claim I didn't want to offend anyone. Mostly I think people would just get a kick out of it.

Back to the topic before I have no problem saying these things when they are said to me first but for me personally I love the holidays (minus the snow and extreme cold most of the time) but really I do enjoy them. The songs, Eggnog, Christmas trees, all of it. Mostly just the spending time with every one.

I'm offering this simple phrase to kids from 1 to 92, although it's been said many times, many ways. Merry Christmas to you....

Never Take Friendship Personal.

So here I sit after another good night out. On the way home from dropping off Sara, I was listening to a song by Anberlin called 'Never Take Friendship Personal'. This got me to thinking. It's actually kind of true. I mean honestly we take everything in a friendship personal. Mind you that is kind of the point, but mostly just lately with everything that's happened within the last few months... We take things that don't involve us and make them personal because we have friendships with each of the parties. Why?

That simple question could have a million answers. It could be because we care about everyone involved and want to see everything work out. Possibly because we feel we need to help them resolve the issue so that nothing more becomes of what has already happened. Crazy talk.

Personaly I'm all about helping my friends out but when it comes to the point where I have to choose between these things, or anythings along those lines I think it is just crazy talk. Now think what you want but for me I think that if it doesn't really involve you then stay out of it. Now you can think what you want and definatly have your own opinion and what not but does every one else really need to know? Or even better do you need to add to what's happening?

Now this could just be the ramblings of a person who definatly had to much to drink last night, or even some one who is overtired. Mostly I think it was just that the song hit a thought and I figured it should be shared with those who actually read this. (I know there aren't many) That being said I'm going to continue listening to my christmas techno, yes that's right. Christmas TECHNO! Then when I'm done with that I'm going to crash, and it is definatly going to be glorious.

Never take friendship personal. If you can't hold yourself together why should I hold you now?