Past Present Future

Okay. So i've decided that when people start getting older/into more serious relationships they don't see all the people they used to as much. Mind you i never really saw much of a lot of people except for Kate, and Sara... Now i don't get to see Kate as much... (Kate your really the only one who pays attention to this... I'll call you more I promise)

any way i suppose it's sort of the natural way things go, you get older, start spending time with who your with, and have the occational night out with your friends. I think that kinda sucks. oh well.

on a better note. Two weekends ago was the big trip to edmonton with the girls (minus Jessica unfortunately) and I think it was a big success, we went out and did what we do best. Shopped. lol and walked around Whyte ave. It was pretty spectacular.

Last weekend was spent with Morgans parents in Love. Sk. That was also good. I suppose it's a really good thing that I like his parents. Well... the one's i've met any ways. He continues to spoil me with pretty much everything. Mind you I get my shots in when I can.

Finally to the future. I'm going to school in the fall so I"ve started part time at work, and I"m going BACK to edmonton this weekend for my cousin's wedding! Congrats Jen! and then I don't know. I think after that It's aug long... so any suggestions would be GRRRREAT!! althought i think i may have to go camping with my family but we shall see what is what.

Now FINALLY the end... people need to... I dunno... ya I"ve really got nothing. I'm going to the Ex, and taking Morgan with me. any one else is welcome to join us. I don't have any idea what else i'm only working mon, tues, wed now so gimme a ring a ding.

When we dance you have a way with me, stay with me, sway me more!

I'm alive... and slightly pissed.

alright now that it's been a rediculous amout of time that i have updated i figured i would do so. I moved home because I'm taking hotel and restaruant management in the fall. Thats pretty much it. It's been pretty tame mainly because I haven't seen any of the regular people I did before but I guess thats okay.

The real issue on my mind really is thats stupid freaking war in Iraq. why? Because a few weeks ago when 3 canadians were killed in that bombing (I know there's one every day almost) but one of them was my cousin. Mind you I hadn't seen him since I was around 2 but that's not really the point.

The point is will the war ever stop? most likely not. Is it doing much of anything? most likely not. Again keep in mind I don't really keep track of what is happening over there, I would try and follow it but the same thing happens almost every day and nothing really changes. ANYWAY! I say stop sending people over to get killed and let Iraq do whatever. There is always going to be something like that happening somewhere. You can't controle it, and maybe it's like all the bacteria and such... one day a super bug/evil will come about then we will all be fucked.

Yep. that's it. That's all... I haven't any more.

let it go. there is no way you can save it now. get back in line, let the city keep burning!

Um... ya.

Okay... I know it's been a while guys but it'll be better soon. I promise. So onto the big big news. I am going back to school in the fall. I know. It's a shocker, and it's true. I was accepted into SIAST for the Hotel and Restaruant Managemant course. I'm pretty much in shock still.

Other than that it's been pretty tame, I'm still going out with Morgan (it's a grand total of 3 months now) I'm still working at marriott. I moved in with Curtis and Tam, just to move out right away because of school.

Thats really all I have. I just figured out all deserved a bit of an update since it's been so freakin long. Honestly I kinda miss living at home... The fixed rent, the free food, the laundry being done all the time at the same time, I'm going to miss living on my own when that time comes. But I think having money before school comes first. So naturally I think i'm going to be moving home within the next month or so. At least i'll still have my TV to keep me company. ;)

Other than that I think that I miss you guys. I've seen Sara more than any one. So I think I need to start making some phone calls. I miss you Kate, and even Alexander even though I randomly saw him while Morgan and I were out for supper. That and I wanna see Kate's new addition! You'll be glad to know that since i've been living with the two at Tam's I affectionatly call little terds, I'm not so alergic!!

but...

thats it thats all. get the f*** out my house.

Undeniable luck

Sitting at work, watching movies, texting so i don't get bored. That was the beginning of my day. Then standing around talking to the representatives who came in from the Orange County area talking about the cool things that are down there. They are all pretty cool, making random jokes about the things in the area.

The best part of having people come in from out of town, is the things that they bring with them. Usually it's only something from around the area. Chocolate, wine, things of that nature. I guess the wonderful people from the O.C. have electronics in their area. ha. xbox 360, playstation 2's, DVD players, a 32" TV with built in dvd player, and my new baby... a 37" LCD flat screen tv...

Honestly I couldn't sit still, I walked around the rest of my day which was about 20 at work with this giant smile on my face, and i couldn't stand still. call it undeniable luck, good karma whatever you wish. I call it awesome. Those are the days to remember, those are the days that people should live for, and cherish.

Mind you it'll just become a part of my every day life style, and eventually forget how i got it... but until that happens... that tv is... AWESOME!!

They slap you like a bitch and you take it like a whore

Behavioral issues.

Okay. I'm going to make this short because I need to go to bed soon. Mostly about people and the way they are around certain people. In social settings if you don't like some one you just don't talk to them, or you say something like "hi" and your done? Then the rest of the people go out of their way to avoid you at the cost of some one else. The middle man. I've been the middle man, most of you have been the middle man. So why do we need this person?

This person is a mutual friend of two people who aren't friends. Now most of the time it's cool and you all just go out and not really socalise with the person you don't like. So why is it that it's the middle man's job to keep the peace?

Now some of you know what i'm talking about because of what happened this weekend. For thsoe of you who don't i'm not going to go into detail because thats definatly not how i roll. (and yes i did just say "thats how I roll) But personally I have no problem with the other person, but I have a problem with them being around I can't see my friends. Sure they are leaving in a few days but why can't we all just get along till that happens and go our seperate ways after?

I guess the main thing I don't understand about the whole issue is why some people are the way they are. I know i'm asking a lot here but really. Just because you don't like some one, and granted there are times when really that dislike is more of a strong dislike of even a hate, but for the times it's not can't you just suck it up and get over it for a night, or a few hours? Does everything have to be that way?

I dunno thats just the way I am....

It's a wednesday.

Okay... since Kate went on a little bit of a rant about how no one updates... Ya that's ever so true. I will admit to well not updating as much as I used to. In part because we didn't have a computer here for a while, then I went to calgary, then to vegas, and now I'm working a later shift. Well it's time to get back into the groove even though hardly any one reads mine. oh well...

wait, wait! I hear people wanting something... MEEEE!!!!

Ha. Happy feet was a typical disney movie. Started off slow with the story line, then got into the funny stuff in the middle with the tap dancing penguin. mostly I just liked it because the midget penguins were pretty damned funny.

Now to address the weekend issue... This weekend was full of a few twists. Friday Sara and I went to the Scuz. Then oddly enough ran into nailpolish and his friends and ultimately went to DIVA'S. Okay so it's not all that I thought it was. It's more of a traditional club, everything is a remix, there are only a few gay pride banners at the roof, and every one dances. To sum it up in a word... Awesome. Now would I ever go there just by myself? No.

Moving on to saturday. Katie and I went on a pub crawl which was the Blue Balls Crawl, then later got re-named the Shitty Ass Bar pub crawl. It started at Ryle's, then to the OD, and finally to Jaxx. When I got back to the Pat where it started some guy I named JT (because he reminded me of Justin Timberlake) kept hitting on me so I peaced out after telling him I was going to the washroom.

Sunday I went over to my Grandparents it being Easter Sunday and all, then Nickel and I came back to my place and we watched a movie. That was basically the entire night. Hanging out with my cousin and a little later Morgan.

I found the light in the tunnel at the end...

What happens in Vegas doesn't always stay there...

Okay well my trip to Las Vegas has definately come and gone. To sum up that trip. Fairly awesome. It definately reach orgasmic experience standards but that was just because I couldn't drink... or well drink. I don't really care to gamble.

Other than that it was fantastic. A lot of walking mind you but thats okay. I saw some pretty fantastic things. You all know that I like things that sparkle and shine, and that is that city is all about. On the first few days it was walking around and shopping. Which I am perfectly alright with.
After that we went to Mesquite. Which really kinda sucked ass. The age in that place was either 80, 50, or 12. Mind you there were maybe 10 people in that entire place (not including staff) that wasn't that age. So me and my cousins sat in the hot tub, and ate candy. This was while the parental units were gambling or drinking their faces off. Mind you D-wayne did offer to buy me booze. I was already tired by then.

Finally the end of the trip we had to go back through Las Vegas to the airport, and on the way through D-wayne and I stopped at New York New York and went on the rollercoaster. That rocked my socks. Mainly because the people behind us were celebrating a graduation, and at the top of one part the lady yelled out "I JUST PISSED MYSELF!" finniest thing of the entire trip.

While we were going through the airport security I made the metal detector go off. So rather than have to stand there and take all of the bobbie pins out of my hair, because I had it pinned up, I just opted to be wanded... and let me tell you. The big black woman with the rubber gloves is suprisingly gentle.

Other than that nothing has really happened since I've been home. Juno weekend came and went, and I finally went to see TMNT. I loved it. Mainly because i'm a huge turtle fan. So some of you may not like it nearly as much, but what can you do.

Oh and for every one who is a little freaked out by turning 20 some time this year... It's not a big thing. Well at least for me it wasn't. I don't want to say that some of you won't take it worse than me but honestly it's just a birthday. Take a few deep breaths when your day comes. If that fails. Just celebrate your 19th birthday twice and go straight to 21. Thats when your legal in every part of the world.

Circle, circle. Dot, dot. I got my cootie shot! (uh huh)

Anger is my best friend

"Once in a life time I could feel this way" ... I wish... But no, that never happens. Ever. Considering how I am feeling right now. I know that it will happen over, and over, and over. It's not love, or admiration, or envy even. This would be much more interesting, this would be anger.

Honestly I feel like standing on my balcony and shouting out one hell of a string of profanities that would shock every one. I'll settle for just doing this. My day wasn't completely covered in a vial of red. It actually started off fairly good. Work wasn't filled with any overly stupid people, old people, or even the crazies who don't speak english. Then I went to the rentals house and had supper. Thats when things went wrong.

Trying to stay calm while talking to my mom lately has become harder and harder. Can you do this? Why haven't you done that yet? Are you going to... the list goes on and on... Even now I'm getting even worse thinking about it. Why do some people just know exactly what to say and what to do to make everything go wrong? Why do they feel the need to wreck a perfectly good day in a week that's already been hell? What... The... Fuck?

Drowning deep in my sea of loathing.